i need to learn to be more comfortable with being in public alone… i’m getting pretty tired of trying so hard to get my friends to do stuff with me only for like 2 of them to show up and then feeling like crap during and afterwards and tbh i’m not even sure why because everyone always has legitimate reasons not to show up but that’s besides the point

i’m gonna stay up get a bunch of shit done right now and then i’m gonna ask my mom for a little bit of money and i’m gonna go and walk around downtown and check out all the cool stores and hang out by myself and try and draw and maybe take some pictures and try and not hate myself